someone just kill miyuki already

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everyone thinks you’re dating someone other than me, and you’re worried this will strain our relationship, but you’re also mad because every time you voice these concerns I suggest a threesome AU

Nabe, c'mon... [ don't pout, he doesn't say, because he has enough self-preservation not to. he does, however, rest his hand at the small of nabe's back and lean around him with his most winning smile. ]

I was kidding! [ kind of, anyway. never mind that he does this all the time. any time someone comments that nori and nabe are looking suspiciously close, he just nods along and lets it go until they're (mostly) alone. (kuramochi being around counts as mostly alone, whatever he might say about it.) the visual - nabe and nori smiling at each other - always makes his heart thump a little. if going after nori meant giving up the best thing that's ever happened to him, he wouldn't do it, but if it didn't - if he could, somehow, have both - then, well. he's been handed a miracle or two in his life before.

thankfully, his reputation for being a shithead protects him from suspicion at times like this! or something. ]

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[ He freezes, for the space of a few heartbeats. The question he didn't especially want to answer, laid right out where he can't exactly wiggle his way out of it. ]

I... [ Oh, that sounds bad. ]

Uh. I mean. [ Nervous, with fake levity: ] Am I about to get in trouble for fantasizing?

[ He swallows, tilting his head to lay his chin against Nabe's hair, untangling their fingers to wrap his arms tight around his shoulders. ]

I'm--I'm in--[ Nope, okay, the words in love with you are too much right now-- ] I like you too much for it to be that serious.

[ A deep breath. ] But, I mean, I... kinda? If it wasn't gonna mess us up.

[ Because any idle fantasies about Nori, sweet as they are, are a hard sell if it means no more Nabe. ]

[minutia]

[Well... whether or not he can reassure him that he won't get mad was moot when Miyuki manages to answer quickly enough. Much too quickly for Hisashi's liking, as he hadn't even actually prepared himself to ask the question, much less hear the answer for it.

There's a momentary pause at the response as Hisashi looks at him, processing what's been said and trying to picture it in his head. It's easy to conjure feelings of jealousy, something he found out from dating Miyuki. After all, he'd be lying if he didn't say part of his attraction towards him was his looks, like many of the girls in their school, aside from everything else he loved about him. So, for a moment, there's uneasiness that grips him at the mention of fantasizing, and he has to remind himself that jumping to conclusions was not a solution and that he needs to listen to the rest of it to properly judge.

As well as hear between the lines.

He has to take note of the little things, the sound of his voice, the actions exchanged when he can't see his face, and he hums softly in response, thinking it over.]

Well... I can't say I'm not even a little mad. [He says, slowly and deliberately, as if he's still trying to find the right words for it. He keeps his hold on Miyuki, careful not to give him any reason to think he'd want to break up because of that. He really doesn't.] But I'm glad you told me.

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[ He winces. He'd figured he was going to hear that, and he knows it's well deserved, but it churns in his stomach, settling like iron in his sternum. His grip falters a fraction like he's preparing to let Nabe step away, but his chin shifts when there's no move to pull away. He'd expected Nabe to put distance between them for admitting that.

One hand finds enough material in Nabe's shirt to hold onto it. It's something physical to hold onto. ]

I'll stop. [ He says it with a serious edge. ] It's not worth upsetting you over.

[ It was only ever an idle thought, not one he'd intended to admit to. And because he's not used to doing it, but he's trying to learn the habit, he makes himself continue: ] I'm sorry.

[minutia]

That's not it.

[He says, and while perhaps in the past he'd have just agreed and let it move on-- he knows he needs to get used to giving his thoughts on the matter more. If he doesn't, he'll cause more misunderstandings. His shoulders sag in relief though, because even if no one else would agree with him about it, Miyuki's been very considerate of him during times like this. It reminds him why he likes him, maybe more than that, though it's a threshold he's not quite ready to jump over.]

I've... been considering it too, if you really wanted to try it.

[There's some delay in how he says that, as if he had to think of whether or not to say it.]

I just wasn't sure if you did.